The flag waves in the breeze
It brings me to my knees
To see our flag wave in spite
Of all the wrong that should be right
Oh, Father, hear our knees hit the floor
Bring revival to our nation once more
Hear our prayer and our cry
That unborn children no more may die.
That men no more seek in vain
Or teens end their lives to escape their pain
That the world would see there is more to life
More than sickness, drugs, and strife
People drink to dull their pain
Find lovers to give love they could not gain
We seek divorce, and to our hurt we add
The newest clothes, the latest fad.
Who will help them? Who will see?
Here I am Lord...please use me" -Amen
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
It has been far too long since I've posted last. I'm afraid I have no good excuse...
I am now 21! What an odd thing it is to grow older. I still feel like I'm in high school...but I'm not. I'm going to be a senior in college! A SENIOR in COLLEGE! How weird is that? To think that by this time next year I will be graduated. I feel like all I talk about on this blog is school...how annoying that must be to read about. But, it's such a big part of my life right now it's hard not to talk about it.
Believe it or not, I can't think of anything amazing to say. Usually, when I blog, something comes to mind. A theme, a poem, or an all important thought. Oh, here's one!
If you are lonely and want more friends, don't look to the popular, famed, or "cool". Look to the edges of the crowd, the ones sitting alone, go to them and befriend them. You will never be alone. Who knows, you might even find your best friend.
There, I've done it...I've written a short post with a thought. :D
I am now 21! What an odd thing it is to grow older. I still feel like I'm in high school...but I'm not. I'm going to be a senior in college! A SENIOR in COLLEGE! How weird is that? To think that by this time next year I will be graduated. I feel like all I talk about on this blog is school...how annoying that must be to read about. But, it's such a big part of my life right now it's hard not to talk about it.
Believe it or not, I can't think of anything amazing to say. Usually, when I blog, something comes to mind. A theme, a poem, or an all important thought. Oh, here's one!
If you are lonely and want more friends, don't look to the popular, famed, or "cool". Look to the edges of the crowd, the ones sitting alone, go to them and befriend them. You will never be alone. Who knows, you might even find your best friend.
There, I've done it...I've written a short post with a thought. :D
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
So Long Insecurities!
Readers, I am declaring independence!
For too many years I have lived under this idea that, "I'm not enough", "I'm not good enough". I don't know what exactly the "enough" is supposed to be for. All I know is that at EVERY failure I have heard these words shouted in my head. Throughout my life, and earnestly in the past few years, God has worked amazingly in my life and has removed many of the lies I had believed about myself. I can look in the mirror and see beauty! Beauty that I never believed I would see. But, enough of that, on to my independence. For too long I have lived under this tyranny, and have taken every little comment to heart. For instance, two weeks ago in my culinary class a teacher told me that my uniform was sloppy. I, took that remark, and ran with it. The whole rest of the class I just wanted to throw my uniform away, because I was now aware of it and couldn't change it. I read too much into the comment, and got mad. All because, I am too self conscious. Well, guess what! NO MORE!
I AM A Nerd for Christ!!! I LOVE talking about Him, and He has just recently revived that love. I am going to stop caring that I sound like a lunatic to the world, and I'm going to talk about Him! Instances of the spirit, miracles, and Bible verses included. :)
I can't listen to music without dancing to it! It is a proven fact, commented on by several of my friends. I again, at the time, tried to stop myself from then on when I would start to sway to the music. Thinking, that maybe dancing EVERY time I heard a song was wrong. But you know what?! That's how God created me! He created me to love music, and has given me a passion for dance. I love to dance almost more than I love to cook, and sometimes wonder if I missed my calling. So, the next time you hang out with me, bring your dancing shoes and we'll sway to the music together.
I am a Doctor Who fanatic (or Whovian, as we are formally called), it is my one nerdy addiction. I love the TARDIS and wish I had one to travel through time on. I love David Tennant as the Doctor, and don't know if I will ever like Matt Smith...but I am trying!
I have NO idea what I want to do with my degree...NONE. Honestly, there is not one clue. I want to find MY dream, MY own calling. I want to make a difference for Christ, and serve His children. I also want to go to the French Culinary Institute to study Chocolate, and cakes.
I am a neat freak in the kitchen. When I cook, I wash my hands every five minutes. Seriously... I love working with my hands, I just hate it when they're messy for long periods of time.
I LOVE playing the piano, even if I am no good at it. I've been told by piano playing friends that I've played certain notes the wrong way, and you know what? It's fine! I can learn to play them correctly, with some tutelage. And, I can continue to learn from their example, and play for my Audience of One.
I am not detail oriented. I am a big picture person! I like going from point A to Point B, I just don't know how to get there. I know what Point B is going to look like...just not how to make it like that. Does that make any sense?
I am not a girly girl. I adore dresses, and dressing up. But, I will never get up an hour early just to do my hair. I don't care for makeup, and honestly I'm too tall for heels. I love my jeans, but love my comfy workout pants better. I am a T-shirt and jeans kinda girl, and I'm going to stop pretending/striving to be otherwise.
I am horrible at defending others and myself when confronted. I live "today in yesterday" as John Keats once said. After the fact, I can think of a thousand things that I wish I had said, or did. But, when I am in the moment...nothing! I am too upset, and trying to process what is going on to retort. I absolutely hate this about myself. It turns me into a doormat, and I can't even defend my LORD when someone is bashing him. I didn't defend my teacher today in math when he was being bashed (behind his back) by my classmates. I thought afterwards, it doesn't matter that I didn't say anything...my silence was just as bad. I have often wondered, "Where were the people that loved Jesus on His crucifixion day? Why were they silent? When the mob was shouting 'crucify', why were they not shouting 'No'". I get it now...Taking a stand is never easy, especially in an angry crowd. But still...
The same goes for when I have confronted someone, or criticized them. I wonder if I was too harsh, and I rethink what I said over and over and over again until I wish I had just held my tongue. I will probably be rethinking this post as I lay in bed tonight before I go to sleep, thinking about things I should have added, or not have added. I just over think things too much...*sigh*.
I am terrified of water slides, roller coasters, and heights. I have no idea where this comes from, but, while some people think of theme parks as fun...I think of them as death sentences...true story. I have tried to face my fears...but it's still a work in progress.
I will love fairy tales, and tea parties til the day I die. End of story.
I wish I was British...really bad...they live in the most beautiful country, and have the best accents. Plus, Europe's so small they can go to France for the day if they want....FRANCE! Where do we go? Wilmington...or the mountains...*shakes head*.
Those are just a few facts about me, and I for one am going to go into my Plated Desserts class tomorrow, and wow them with my spotless uniform. And, my chai tea affagato, that I am preparing. Pictures later. Goodnight to you all, and good day!
For too many years I have lived under this idea that, "I'm not enough", "I'm not good enough". I don't know what exactly the "enough" is supposed to be for. All I know is that at EVERY failure I have heard these words shouted in my head. Throughout my life, and earnestly in the past few years, God has worked amazingly in my life and has removed many of the lies I had believed about myself. I can look in the mirror and see beauty! Beauty that I never believed I would see. But, enough of that, on to my independence. For too long I have lived under this tyranny, and have taken every little comment to heart. For instance, two weeks ago in my culinary class a teacher told me that my uniform was sloppy. I, took that remark, and ran with it. The whole rest of the class I just wanted to throw my uniform away, because I was now aware of it and couldn't change it. I read too much into the comment, and got mad. All because, I am too self conscious. Well, guess what! NO MORE!
I AM A Nerd for Christ!!! I LOVE talking about Him, and He has just recently revived that love. I am going to stop caring that I sound like a lunatic to the world, and I'm going to talk about Him! Instances of the spirit, miracles, and Bible verses included. :)
I can't listen to music without dancing to it! It is a proven fact, commented on by several of my friends. I again, at the time, tried to stop myself from then on when I would start to sway to the music. Thinking, that maybe dancing EVERY time I heard a song was wrong. But you know what?! That's how God created me! He created me to love music, and has given me a passion for dance. I love to dance almost more than I love to cook, and sometimes wonder if I missed my calling. So, the next time you hang out with me, bring your dancing shoes and we'll sway to the music together.
I am a Doctor Who fanatic (or Whovian, as we are formally called), it is my one nerdy addiction. I love the TARDIS and wish I had one to travel through time on. I love David Tennant as the Doctor, and don't know if I will ever like Matt Smith...but I am trying!
I have NO idea what I want to do with my degree...NONE. Honestly, there is not one clue. I want to find MY dream, MY own calling. I want to make a difference for Christ, and serve His children. I also want to go to the French Culinary Institute to study Chocolate, and cakes.
I am a neat freak in the kitchen. When I cook, I wash my hands every five minutes. Seriously... I love working with my hands, I just hate it when they're messy for long periods of time.
I LOVE playing the piano, even if I am no good at it. I've been told by piano playing friends that I've played certain notes the wrong way, and you know what? It's fine! I can learn to play them correctly, with some tutelage. And, I can continue to learn from their example, and play for my Audience of One.
I am not detail oriented. I am a big picture person! I like going from point A to Point B, I just don't know how to get there. I know what Point B is going to look like...just not how to make it like that. Does that make any sense?
I am not a girly girl. I adore dresses, and dressing up. But, I will never get up an hour early just to do my hair. I don't care for makeup, and honestly I'm too tall for heels. I love my jeans, but love my comfy workout pants better. I am a T-shirt and jeans kinda girl, and I'm going to stop pretending/striving to be otherwise.
I am horrible at defending others and myself when confronted. I live "today in yesterday" as John Keats once said. After the fact, I can think of a thousand things that I wish I had said, or did. But, when I am in the moment...nothing! I am too upset, and trying to process what is going on to retort. I absolutely hate this about myself. It turns me into a doormat, and I can't even defend my LORD when someone is bashing him. I didn't defend my teacher today in math when he was being bashed (behind his back) by my classmates. I thought afterwards, it doesn't matter that I didn't say anything...my silence was just as bad. I have often wondered, "Where were the people that loved Jesus on His crucifixion day? Why were they silent? When the mob was shouting 'crucify', why were they not shouting 'No'". I get it now...Taking a stand is never easy, especially in an angry crowd. But still...
The same goes for when I have confronted someone, or criticized them. I wonder if I was too harsh, and I rethink what I said over and over and over again until I wish I had just held my tongue. I will probably be rethinking this post as I lay in bed tonight before I go to sleep, thinking about things I should have added, or not have added. I just over think things too much...*sigh*.
I am terrified of water slides, roller coasters, and heights. I have no idea where this comes from, but, while some people think of theme parks as fun...I think of them as death sentences...true story. I have tried to face my fears...but it's still a work in progress.
I will love fairy tales, and tea parties til the day I die. End of story.
I wish I was British...really bad...they live in the most beautiful country, and have the best accents. Plus, Europe's so small they can go to France for the day if they want....FRANCE! Where do we go? Wilmington...or the mountains...*shakes head*.
Those are just a few facts about me, and I for one am going to go into my Plated Desserts class tomorrow, and wow them with my spotless uniform. And, my chai tea affagato, that I am preparing. Pictures later. Goodnight to you all, and good day!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Syllabub
Bloggers! I have been inspired, and delighted to find a new dessert that I had never heard of. It is called Syllabub. I love the name. What is a syllabub? Let me tell you!
It is a lemon cream whipped into submission, laced with lemon zest, and flavored with a flamed sherry wine (flaming means you pour a little of the alcohol into a gas flame and then set it aside til the flame goes out...it's really fun I assure you). I tasted this dessert at the Kings Arms Tavern in Williamsburg Virginia. A delightful, albeit pricey establishment where we were entertained with violin music while we dined. My Mother delighted me today when she found the recipe in a colonial cook book that I didn't know we had. The dessert in the picture is a syllabub.
School starts again today, and I'm hoping and praying that the rest of the semester goes smoothly.
Many of you have asked about my job, and so I might as well tell you that I am no longer working at Upper Crust. They did not have the time or inclination to train me, and so we parted ways. I was devastated at first, but it has turned out for the best. I'm much happier now, and can no longer stay up past midnight (which is a good thing), and I have been able to spend time with friends and go to church. So, what man intended for harm, God turned into good.
I have also joined a Bible study. It is a wonderful group of ladies, and I have so enjoyed being there. We share a meal, then discuss the book we're reading, "Is God Really In Control?" By Jerry Bridges, and then we spend time in prayer. I do admit that I was hesitant to join at first, because, I wasn't really close to any of the people going, but it has turned into the highlight of my week. I am enjoying the fellowship, and getting closer to God is always a rewarding experience.
Oh, I have also started jogging/running. While in Williamsburg I went to the spa adjacent to our hotel. There was a pool, work out room, and spa area. I weighed myself on one of the scales, and was definitely found wanting! I found that I weigh more than I thought I did and as such, have started exercising more. I'm still perfectly happy with how I look, I just want to get back to a healthy weight. I even made steamed salmon with a lemon vinaigrette last night for dinner. It was delicious and healthy. I have decided that I love running! And walking. It gives you a thrill, though I don't suppose I'm much good at it yet.
I always intend to write short posts on here, and it never seems to work. Oh well, I suppose that's it for now.
Blessings!
Kara
It is a lemon cream whipped into submission, laced with lemon zest, and flavored with a flamed sherry wine (flaming means you pour a little of the alcohol into a gas flame and then set it aside til the flame goes out...it's really fun I assure you). I tasted this dessert at the Kings Arms Tavern in Williamsburg Virginia. A delightful, albeit pricey establishment where we were entertained with violin music while we dined. My Mother delighted me today when she found the recipe in a colonial cook book that I didn't know we had. The dessert in the picture is a syllabub.
School starts again today, and I'm hoping and praying that the rest of the semester goes smoothly.
Many of you have asked about my job, and so I might as well tell you that I am no longer working at Upper Crust. They did not have the time or inclination to train me, and so we parted ways. I was devastated at first, but it has turned out for the best. I'm much happier now, and can no longer stay up past midnight (which is a good thing), and I have been able to spend time with friends and go to church. So, what man intended for harm, God turned into good.
I have also joined a Bible study. It is a wonderful group of ladies, and I have so enjoyed being there. We share a meal, then discuss the book we're reading, "Is God Really In Control?" By Jerry Bridges, and then we spend time in prayer. I do admit that I was hesitant to join at first, because, I wasn't really close to any of the people going, but it has turned into the highlight of my week. I am enjoying the fellowship, and getting closer to God is always a rewarding experience.
Oh, I have also started jogging/running. While in Williamsburg I went to the spa adjacent to our hotel. There was a pool, work out room, and spa area. I weighed myself on one of the scales, and was definitely found wanting! I found that I weigh more than I thought I did and as such, have started exercising more. I'm still perfectly happy with how I look, I just want to get back to a healthy weight. I even made steamed salmon with a lemon vinaigrette last night for dinner. It was delicious and healthy. I have decided that I love running! And walking. It gives you a thrill, though I don't suppose I'm much good at it yet.
I always intend to write short posts on here, and it never seems to work. Oh well, I suppose that's it for now.
Blessings!
Kara
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Busy! Busy! Busy!
Oh my! What a crazy first two weeks of the new semester this has been. Only God knows if I will survive this semester or not with all the added responsibilities that I have taken on.
Difficult things:
1) Waking up early...I am taking a 7am class that meets everyday, and it has been so difficult to wake up for it. I am NOT a morning person and I firmly believe that there should be a law against waking up before 10am. haha.
2). Balancing school work, friends, rest, God, and family. Not to mention, God gave me a JOB!!! But, more on that later.
3). Taking time to have my quiet time/ memorize the book of Phillipians each day. This really is a struggle for me. Because, sitting down and reading feels more like pleasure, than something I should make a priority for. However, I'm beginning to see how much I desperately to spend time with God in the morning. He loves me and wants to spend time with me. And my day always feels more balanced when I've had my quiet time.
4). Trying to find the balance between relaxation and working. Both are important...and good! But, they have to be properly balanced, and this is something I need to work on.
5). Not being able to go to Cross Wave very often...
6). I have to go do homework.
Great Things!
1). As I mentioned before God has placed me in a job! He quite literally put this in my lap. I now work at Upper Crust Pie and Bakery in Raleigh. It is a wonderful place, and SO much fun to work at. I love coming home feeling accomplished, and excited about what I made. I'm still a bit nervous, and am learning my way around the kitchen and how things need to be done, but it's such a pleasure.
2). One of the classes that I was dreading more than anything is actually of fun! All of my cakes in the class came out perfectly, and my timing was fast. Which is great! Being adequately prepared helped so much! And the teacher wasn't half as bad as I thought they would be.
3). I am pleasantly surprised that I both understand and enjoy my Math 115 class.
4). I have started watching Dr. Who and am quite addicted at the moment. haha.
5). God is up to something, and I don't know what it is but I look forward to see what He is going to do in and through me. He has me where I am and in the classes I'm in for a reason...I can't wait to see what it is.
6). I am so immeasurably blessed! My friends and family are such a blessing to me, and I am thankfully for each and everyone of you.
Tonight I went to Katie's house and we watched Letters to Juliet. It's wonderful to watch a romantic comedy with a good friend. Sometimes a girl just needs to spend time doing nothing with a dear friend. Just talking about movies, and the uncomplicated things of life. It was wonderful, and I was sad to leave. Saturday I work again and then meet an old classmate of mine to work on cakes.
I just wanted to update you on my goings on. I hope that you are all well, and are enjoying the new year.
Blessings,
Kara
Difficult things:
1) Waking up early...I am taking a 7am class that meets everyday, and it has been so difficult to wake up for it. I am NOT a morning person and I firmly believe that there should be a law against waking up before 10am. haha.
2). Balancing school work, friends, rest, God, and family. Not to mention, God gave me a JOB!!! But, more on that later.
3). Taking time to have my quiet time/ memorize the book of Phillipians each day. This really is a struggle for me. Because, sitting down and reading feels more like pleasure, than something I should make a priority for. However, I'm beginning to see how much I desperately to spend time with God in the morning. He loves me and wants to spend time with me. And my day always feels more balanced when I've had my quiet time.
4). Trying to find the balance between relaxation and working. Both are important...and good! But, they have to be properly balanced, and this is something I need to work on.
5). Not being able to go to Cross Wave very often...
6). I have to go do homework.
Great Things!
1). As I mentioned before God has placed me in a job! He quite literally put this in my lap. I now work at Upper Crust Pie and Bakery in Raleigh. It is a wonderful place, and SO much fun to work at. I love coming home feeling accomplished, and excited about what I made. I'm still a bit nervous, and am learning my way around the kitchen and how things need to be done, but it's such a pleasure.
2). One of the classes that I was dreading more than anything is actually of fun! All of my cakes in the class came out perfectly, and my timing was fast. Which is great! Being adequately prepared helped so much! And the teacher wasn't half as bad as I thought they would be.
3). I am pleasantly surprised that I both understand and enjoy my Math 115 class.
4). I have started watching Dr. Who and am quite addicted at the moment. haha.
5). God is up to something, and I don't know what it is but I look forward to see what He is going to do in and through me. He has me where I am and in the classes I'm in for a reason...I can't wait to see what it is.
6). I am so immeasurably blessed! My friends and family are such a blessing to me, and I am thankfully for each and everyone of you.
Tonight I went to Katie's house and we watched Letters to Juliet. It's wonderful to watch a romantic comedy with a good friend. Sometimes a girl just needs to spend time doing nothing with a dear friend. Just talking about movies, and the uncomplicated things of life. It was wonderful, and I was sad to leave. Saturday I work again and then meet an old classmate of mine to work on cakes.
I just wanted to update you on my goings on. I hope that you are all well, and are enjoying the new year.
Blessings,
Kara
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